One last time....i love you...

I take a deep breath,
say five words and let my true tears fall,
when you answer me maybe this wont work at all,
friends we can still remain,
but since then no longer have i heard you speak my name,
felt your hand touch my palm,
heard your thoughts,
your deepest secrets that you hide,
I close my eyes as a tear rolls down my cheek,
and I imagine the words you speak,
the words you say,the games you played,
the options I've tried,
to attempt to keep our friendship alive,
as I've failed in all of the above,
I admit by chance maybe i just fell in love,
my heartbrakes and it aches,
I've never felt so depressed,
and yet all the time I wish for only the best,
I wish for love,
I wish for everything to go my way,
I wish that all this hurt and all this pain would all just fade away,
I feel alone,
So unloved,
And yet i wonder is this how its meant to be?
I wish i meant to you what you so fondly mean to me,
I close my eyes,
With tears drop,
And again,
Try to recall the voice you speak,
The words you said,
The games you played,
the options that i tried,
to attempt for our friendship to stay alive,
As i know that i have failed,
totally failed in all of the above,
And I have to admit that,
I really fell in love,
toward you...deeply.

Written by : H.J
Based on a true story